I don't know where Raph is? I think I lost her somewhere on a virgin pendilino... left starving and exhausted with a very numb bum.
As you all will know I have now vanished from the internet modelling community.
Wait....''Community''? Is that really the word i am looking for?...Im not sure... More like a small pond, of which i was quite a healthy sized fish, but undoubtedly was going to drown as a result of pressurised levels, sexual abuse or insanity.
To be honest none of them sounded too appealing.
Quite unbelievable that it has taken me nearly a decade to get my self a Facebook and i delete the account after one week.
Unfortunately it comes after one too many bad experiences for me.
But...
This is by far the end of my modelling journey.
I will be continuing to Model & Muse and can still be contacted via email or my upcoming website. But I will no logger be owned by modelling, it will be taking a back seat in my life not ruling it. These past months I have indeed created some of my best work to date, but the reality of the day to day grind is not quite as glamorous as the final image and quite frankly very un-stimulating. For many successful freelance models we are booked as a package for our 'unique' talents and niches, which I often forget to be thankful for but far to many days we work as clapping seals not creatives as we would so much like to be. We are continuously booked to re-create images we already have in our books or that fellow models have produced, this is a very tedious and unchallenging task and the sense of achievement is non existent. And not to achieve is not to evolve.
This I must add is not a reflection of every photographer whom i have had the pleasure of working with, so so many of these people are true friends whom are truly talented, who bring spice, excitement and purpose to each shoot like they have been bound from there cameras for a century….. and that really is the making of marvellous images.
My career has now in conjunction had a face lift, and I am so grateful to have some very exciting and challenging prospects to get my teeth stuck into.
However I will be persisting with my baby blog, on all my latest gossip, voyages and exploits so if you give a hoot stay tuned.
See you all in the next episode of RaphWorld.
With love Raphaella. x
